A Moment in Time

There was a moment in time-

Just one of many.

But a special one, when time stood still.

Did the birds ceased to sing,

Or the traffic stop its endless rumble?

I know not.

In the snow of Istanbul,

Just one kneeprint,

Amongst a thousand thousand footprints.

Did the wind still blow upon my cheek,

Or the snow fall on my uplifted face?

I know not

There was just one heart:

Just one so precious,

That I’d give everything to win.

How did I find you there - so far away?

Because I searched, or because you were meant for me?

I know not.

I spoke some words in a foreign tongue.

Just two, that's all.

“Zanam mishee” – will you be mine?

Did the angels dance in heaven,

Or God who joined us smile down from his throne?

I know not.

Just this one thing I know:

That of all that I have ever loved,

And every impulse that has touched my soul,

I have never loved so much.

And that one moment stands for me, unique,

Although a thousand others pass,

For all eternity.

30th March 2005

Nice poem? Well the sad thing is that I married her, and she left me on Jan 3rd the following year. I don't know where she is now.  And you know, I really loved her and treated her so kindly.  I will always wonder if she really loved me.  She really seemed as if she did, and I want to believe it.  But did she just want to come to a better country, and was I just a safe way to do it?  Could she merely pretend so well - as my friends try to tell me?  Perhaps I will never know the answers.  The only thing I know is that my God knows, as all of my friends know, that I tried my best and was always true and kind to her.   And I hope that one day God will give me another 'moment in time' when I can be truly happy in sharing my love with another - a moment that may never die.